What He Can't Do Anymore...

Hey Jonathan... So I wanted to tell you about this book... Beaufort. My friend, Mark, bought it a while back and loaned it to me to read. The preface starts out with a description of a game called "What He Can't Do Anymore" in which the narrator and his friends are listing all the different things their friend, Yonatan (Jonathan), can no longer do because he is dead. He will never break up with a girlfriend, get yelled at by his mother, drive to the beach, etc. etc. Never had I been more glad that I was reading the book in my own house... tears were streaming down my face. And suddenly all the things that you will never do began running through my head... there are the routine things... the adventures... and the family events... the stories... Of course, you don't miss doing those things. Of this I am confident. But we miss you being here. I miss sharing the routine and the extraordinary with you.

Anyway, when I first read the preface, I immediately thought "How dare Mark give me this book without some warning!" Seriously. I was all ready to call him and give him what for. And then I remembered that he had given me the book to read first. So he wasn't even aware of the connection it would have to me personally. And its not that I wouldn't have wanted to read the book... I just think I would have liked a warning.

The rest of the book was heavy and poignant and I found myself very emotionally involved. You find out more about the Yonatan which I will not share in case anyone wants to read the book. I also have Mark's copy of the movie but I haven't gotten up the nerve to watch it yet.

I miss you!
I love you!

Already June...

Hi Jonathan... I can't believe it has been nearly a month since I last wrote. Not because I haven't been thinking of you... rather the exact opposite. I have been so busy and thought of you so often that it is hard to sit down and put it into writing the things that remind me of you... the stories I remember... how often I talk about you. Sometime in the last month I told a friend that you were gone and he was shocked. He said, "You talk about him so often and as if he is here. I had no idea." I have a lot of funny stories to tell you... and pictures to share... oh and I just finished reading an incredibly powerful and moving book that I have got to tell you about... but I am in the middle of baking... so I will close now and write more later.
Love you!